TRYING TO DROWN MYSELF

“I’m going to start a YouTube channel”. I bought the equipment, I know what I want to say, so why can’t I give you a link to the channel? Because I haven’t done it yet.

No one will watch. I’m not young and hip. What do I say exactly? What if I mess up? How will I do this everyday?

Fear.

That’s what I thought it was at first, but as I’m digging into myself more I realize it’s the same thing that gets me every.single.time.

Perfectionism.

If I launch something, I want it to be perfect. Not great, not excellent, it has to be the BEST. And that’s not realistic. If I don’t let go of that, this channel will never happen. And the ridiculous thing is while I compare myself to Carlos Whitaker, GaryVee, Casey Neistat, if I really pause to think about it, their’s aren’t perfect. They’re consistent, they’re interesting. Shoot, my kids watch YouTube channels (actually Kids YouTube since I won’t let them watch regular YouTube) and the stuff they watch is downright terrible. Chase playing with random toys. Even as I type this I think I’ve figured out the trick:

Launch.

What project has been in your mind for months, years, forever? I’m all for making sure it’s right, but at some point you and I have to launch. Take one step. Don’t think about all of the steps, that’ll just overwhelm you, it does me. It makes me not know where to start.

For me, I have another project, bigger than the YouTube channel and I finally sent off the email to get it in gear with the first real meeting. Now stop reading and go make that first step, go send that email.

SHAKEN NOT STIRRED

My blog got attacked, taken down, fixed, attacked, and then taken down again. That was a year ago. I was head down focused on building and leading the team at Victory, and even though I had things to say it wasn’t a priority. Of course it helped that I had outlets to write, primarily at SundayMag, but the resistance of having to rebuild the blog had conquered me. For a year, at least.

But the hunger to have a voice in the work of others working in the church, to share my successes and failures, to be a creative leader to those that don’t have one, to help the artist in the church be the best they can be as they tell the story of Jesus. I want to help make the church the most creative place on the planet because the church is the bride of Christ, and as artists we get to make her as beautiful as she can be.

So take that resistance. Now, pull up a seat. I’m excited to serve you.